𝕴 𝖉𝖔 𝖒𝖎𝖘𝖘 𝖞𝖔𝖚.

 Yes, I do miss you. 

I find myself thinking of you more often than I should have. After all, it's been almost a year, the wound is slowly closing but there still remains the scar which reminds me of the time my soul has been ripped in multiple pieces and, somehow, it never healed back the same.

When I look back at us, I don't recognise myself. That version of me that once was, that love and admiration.. is no longer here with me today. I know, a part of me died that day. 

It saddens me, I am slowly forgetting our conversations and your voice. You're slipping through my grip like sand would through my fingers: rapidly, yet some small particles of you still stay stuck to me for a while longer, just to remind me of what I once held dear and is no longer..

I do miss the way you awaken the life inside my soul. You turned on a lighter and ignited my flame. All of the sudden, everything that once were only empty words started to mean something and life was finally worth living. Despite it all, if I could, I would go back and re-live everything with you, even knowing it would lead to my destruction.

Pain, I've tasted it in so many different flavours that I am starting to lose my senses, yet your presence gave me peace, a sweetness that overpowered the biterness, a missing piece that I have been lacking all that time. 

There is a room inside my heart that is reserved just for you. And, even though you're gone, the memory of you still lives there and you will continue to be my secret, burried deep inside my heart. Because of you, I tasted Heaven on Earth. Because of you, I got the sense that I reached divinity with my bare and simple human hands. Because of you, I had stars in my eyes. Everything else is fading but you.. you could never leave. I carry everything you've given me, packed together in a bag full of lessons and memories I hold dear. 

I feel lost and crave the comfort of your arms wrapped around me, if only just for a minute.. 

If only for a minute, I could taste the heavenly illustion of your love and comfort..